This was a really busy week. I worked more than 8 full-focus hours every
single weekday. This means I probably spent more than 10 hours in front of the
computer. It’s a lot! Thankfully this week was a 4-day week so I had time to
rest.
On Friday I spent the whole day working on my sculpture. The bust is coming
along. I decided to do something strange (as I usually do) and make it half
female and half male. I don’t know how I will do the transition smoothly in the
middle of the face but we’ll see.
A while ago, during a sprint retrospective, I suggested significant changes to
our “Definition of Done.” When I finished, the room went quiet. What did that
silence mean?
The silence lasted nearly a minute. Why was no one saying anything? Finally,
the PM broke the tension by prompting the team:
His comment further irritated me. I wondered: Are we really going to operate
like this, where I suggest a top-down change and everyone silently accepts the
new rules? So, I protested.
This is the 8th week since I created hypersubject.net. The effects of this experiment are already tangible. Compared to last year, I have already spent twice as many hours working on my blog(s) and nearly half that time writing even though we are only two months into 2026. I have already published 12 posts this year, which is far more than my total output for all of 2025.
I find myself once again yearning for a digital community. I believe the future of social media (for me) is some kind of invite-only group chat where the conversation flows like a river. It might live in Discord, Slack or even IRC, I don’t care1. Physical community is important but as a millennial I need text-based friendships too.
On Friday, I got a message from kerey on WhatsApp saying that “there is a need for a non-normie consortium”. It triggered a long conversation about the normie/non-normie dichotomy and whether this type of distinction is elitist or not. I collected my thoughts on this in Against the Non-Normie.
“Normie” is a volatile term. Depending on the context, it might refer to atheists, New Agers, people who watch Netflix, people who don’t do drugs, conservatives, liberals, people who care about politics, people who don’t care about politics, people who are optimistic about the future, people who are pessimistic about the future, people who read only fiction, people who don’t read at all, people who read Kant, people who enjoy dancing in the club, people who don’t enjoy dancing, or people who are monogamous. In the end, “normie” is a signifier that points to the outgroup.
Just finished another session of psychoanalysis. Analysis is by far the thing I least enjoy every week. I mean, it works, at least for me, but it’s definitely not something I look forward to. Because it demands me to say the Thing.
What’s the Thing? No one knows. Is there even a Thing? Probably not. But its non-existence doesn’t mean that it has no effects. Structurally, the analyst occupies the position that demands you to say the Thing. How you react to this feeling is the basis of the analytical relationship between you, the analysand, and the analyst.
Daily blogging is definitely not easy. I couldn’t write a post today :(
I am writing this from the drafts.app and will publish it via an action. I hope I don’t turn this site into twitter. Although, since it’s my site, I can do whatever I want. This is my home; I can behave however I want here. Twitter, on the contrary, feels like a town hall. Yeah it’s crowded, so no one really pays attention to you, but it’s still a public place. I don’t want to go crazy in the middle of a town hall. But if you are at my home (my blog), my rules apply.
I wrote five different paragraphs to start this post and couldn’t stitch any of them together. So here are all five fragments.
My ability to do good is limited by my ability to work with others.
Three years ago multiple earthquakes devastated the southeastern region of Turkey. The things we saw were unimaginably bad. Within a few days people started organizing to collect food, clothes, sanitary products etc. I participated in none of it. One day, I felt disgusted with myself. A disaster happened; people were trying to collectively do what they can and I did nothing. Was I really this distant from the people around me? The answer was yes—I was that distant and alienated. I guess it’s no coincidence that I was also depressed as fuck.
At the beginning of this year, I decided to merge all things I wrote in different corners of the internet. After 5 weeks of that experiment, I decided otherwise. My old writings are worthy in their respective contexts. Visitors of this blog are probably not interested in technical posts about Kubernetes nor political posts about Turkey. And I am not interested in writing about them here.
So, my Turkish writing will continue in bengidoom.com and technical posts in ege.dev. Deciding this was a relief—I don’t need to carry the baggage of old writings here. hypersubject.net is the home of a different persona of mine. A persona that I can use to be more personal and honest on the internet. A persona who can regularly hit publish.
